~Katsuhiro-Miamura

Seriously. Doesn't everyone want to do that once in a while.

I haven't really been myself lately. I think I'm overly stressed and I shouldn't be. I got moved temporarily to a different facility 2 weeks ago. It actually didn't sound bad when they told me but it's not so great. I got shafted into cooking at a different facility (which apparently it's kinda illegal for me to do so, but they needed the help and that's all up to my higher command to deal with). The good thing is, is that I only have to work a 6-hour shift. Bad part is I'm pretty much cutting fruit the whole time I'm there, which doesn't sound bad, but it's kinda boring and tedious. And I don't talk a lot to the people there (I don't really open up to people) but I can start little conversations. But man, it's still hectic in there. So many problems that they all have to deal with. But really, I'd rather be working at my original workplace with a 9-hour shift. I have so much free time and I don't know what to do with myself frankly.

My cat just died last week. I can't say I took that too well. And if my dad doesn't send me pictures of my cats, I'm gonna be a little upset. I love those cats to death, even if they are a pain sometimes to deal with. I don't take death to well, whether it be people or pets. I'm an emotional wreck sometimes.

The artwork isn't coming out as much anymore. It's not like I don't draw, it's just that they're doodles all over a paper and they're not good enough to be posted. I have a lot of requests I should be doing, some a year old already. I feel bad for not doing really, but they don't give me a lot of motivation to work on them anyways. I think I do them out of fear that they'll hold it against me. I give in to people sometimes. Like with money... omg, I just need some assertive classes or something, or maybe I can just hire someone to say no for me and then I won't feel as bad.

I'm being a little distant lately. I think it's because my friends over here are filling me with anger, sadness and disappointment. It's just one problem after another. I'm just burnt out. I need another vacation. I can't really say I'm going to be enjoying my summer, but I'll try to make the best out of it. I PROMISE I'LL TRY. And also in the meantime, maybe I'll post more things as well. But we'll see. I always say that and my procrastination gets worst. D: oh noes.

Pray for me. I kinda need it.

~Katsu